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[alexmegami]

If I were to inscribe a threnody
detailing the entirety of my
Tribulations
Would you hearken to them
And give them due consideration?
I muse this.
The rubicund decapod
Gives sweet counterpoint
to the rubidoo
Upon which I feast,
Much like how your remunerations
Siphon sadness from my remonstrances.
The deathful silence of the night
Is shattered by the
Stridulation of crickets and katydids,
As though they are yessing our
Camaraderie, so similar to
Damon and Pythias in its scope,
And finally, my burden
Half-unpacked and meted out
Between us, I carry on my
Weary journey.

Translation:

If I wrote a song telling you about my problems,
Would you listen? Would you care?
I wonder about it.
The lobster and soup I eat taste good together,
Just like your rewards make the sadness of my complaints bearable.
The night is quiet except for chirping crickets and katydids
Who I think are applauding our friendship.
Now that I've kvetched to you and feel better, I'll go home.

Yes, it's utterly random. ^_^; But, all the words are real words, found in the Oxford Canadian Dictionary whilst trying to finish a crossword.


I'm in a bad mood, because I can't write anymore, and I miss it. I have these great ideas, and they NEVER GO ANYWHERE. I can write, it seems, for only a certain amount of time before my ability to continue a story goes kaput. LVDA got to 31 pages, but that was pure script and no description and went NOWHERE. "Foresight" (Clarke/Emmett) got to 8 pages (size 12, single spaced) and has huge gaping holes BEGGING to be filled, but I can't. Maybe it would help if I got people to "Rift" me the escape scene, but I'm not sure. (Raiden could be a Zapper, Emmett could be a... dunno, psionic of some sort, Clarke could be a Rogue Scholar... ^^;) Then there's Victor. I like Victor (relatively speaking). If I could, I would write more Victor. But. I. Can't. And it's so disheartening. Mirrors died mid-birth. Fanfiction starts and dies in one night.

I want to be able to finish a story. If I had a genie who could grant me a wish, that would be it. The ability to write good, complete stories and lyrics. Not that that's so much to ask.

I wish Writer's Block was back. I wish we hadn't lost it in that last month to stupidity, I wish I could write fight scenes, I wish I wish I wish but I don't think I'll ever get. Not that I expect a genie in reality, but I don't think I have the motivation to keep a story going for an extended period of time. And with very few people around at any given time in the summer, I don't think WB could be "run" effectively. What I need is a live audience.

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On other notes, I wish people would stop blaming others for their lack of whatever, be it skill or ability or talent or ANYTHING, and just accept that people don't like what they're doing. And maybe, just maybe, it's because they're doing it badly.

Stuff like people getting angry for not getting X award, when they thought they should have. Or getting X grade when they thought they deserved Y. Or being told X was right when they thought Y was. Well, you know what? Maybe you were wrong. Maybe you didn't deserve it.. And bitching about it isn't going to help.

Also, there are people for whom my distaste as of late has grown exponentially, and if I thought they would care, I would tell them that. But, they don't, because they're caught up in their own little world and have no regard for others. So I will (with any luck) avoid them where possible and attempt to feel morally superior when I can't, instead of beating them into mulch like I really want to.

We get the fact that you like him more than the rest of us. If you don't want a revolt, stop shoving it in our faces.

But, alternatively, there are people for whom my respect and liking has also gone up. Such is the cycle of the world, I guess.

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30 days until I move in to the Columbia Lake Townhouses... Hehe. ^^ Can't wait. Yeah, it's far, but in the worst-case scenario, I'll go hide out at Serena's and stay there ;)

BTW, Serena, what's your schedule like?

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Tomorrow, I think I'll visit the library, see if I can pick up a couple of books, and hang out with people. The best way of forgetting that you can't do what you really want is to be distracted with other people who are doing the exact same thing you are.

Comments

[misplacedstar.livejournal.com]

Poor Ali...I know what the whole not being able to write thing is like. I haven't written anything decent since...October? So yah, hopefully you'll get your inspiration back some time soon, and with your talent, I'm sure you'll be able to finish something! ;)

Heh...

[alexmegami]

Come, Katie, and be my inspiration! ^_~

[shugahkitty.livejournal.com]

heyhey, my sched is mon-thurs, but i'll tell u the details via email, since i dunno for sure now

haha! u can definitely hide out at my house!

*laughs*

[alexmegami]

Oh no! You must make sure not to tempt me to skip Fridays, because you know I will!

*huggles* Going to be so fun~! You can help me study for psych, and I can teach you enough Italian to pick up hot Italian men ;)

Re: *laughs*

[shugahkitty.livejournal.com]

hehe ok here're the details--be sure to tell me yours too...i'll 4get~!!
mon-2:30-5:50
tues- 1-6:20
weds-2:30-5:50
thurs--10:30-12:20, 5-6:20
...so yay! hehe, don't u have nite classes, thurs? such a bad idea! thurs=fed nite!!

and italian men are *not* hot, they're hairy and huge! LoL!

Re: *laughs*

[alexmegami]

Hey! I know plenty of hot Italian men! I'm related to a bunch!

I do have night classes Thursday, but we can hang out Monday and Wednesday nights, and I can still manage Fed night, no worries! Just don't leave before 10 PM! ;)

[sae.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Good luck with the writer's block. I know it intimately well and I know you'll find a way to overcome it. If none of us do, we're not very good writers (and I fail to even consider that as an option). After talking with Gwi, I'm considering writing outside chronological order and jumping back when I feel inspired to join the gaps. Have you tried that? :)

Oh. And your postcard came yesterday while I was completely incapacitated. Best. Timing. Ever *HUG* Thank you ^__^

*grin*

[alexmegami]

Yeah, I have tried that - that's actually what I've been doing with EVERYTHING, sadly. It's just that I can't seem to get those gaps filled. ;)

For example:
Clarke/Emmett: I have the first four scenes, then a "blank" where a) Clarke is rescued and b) is introduced to the other psychics. I have no idea how to write the first and am unsure how to do the second, still. I also have one of Clarke's dreams, way out in the grey mist of the future, completely unconnected to anything as of yet. I also have plans for a second book (meep!), but I only have a vague idea of what would happen. ^^;;

b) LVDA - I have the first three "books" and the end written ^_^;; but the first three need revision (a lot of revision)...

c) Halfbloods: I have the first four 'prologues' written, plus a couple of Seth/Keenan scenes and the official ending. Nothing else yet... ^^;;

And, I never know how to connect them. ^^;; which is part of the writer's block.

But, hopefully, I will overcome! *pose* maybe it's just a matter of forcing myself to write. I can try that.

*grin*

[alexmegami]

Oh, and you're welcome ;) *hugs back*

I really gotta do something about this anonymous thing!

[(Anonymous)]

There there Ali *pat pat* I am quite sure that you will find your spark to right somewhere. Hopefully not at the bottom of a whisky bottle eh? :P Well as you probably know some of the greatest writters were on drugs when writting. :>

See yah
Nav

Re: I really gotta do something about this anonymous thing!

[alexmegami]

Yeah, I'll becomethe drunk poet Silenus... XD;;

Or not.

Silenus is fscking genius!

[mysticjuicer.livejournal.com]

Just thought I'd let you know. :>D Peace.