Hmmmmm...

La la la. I'm bored. So I am going to write nonsensical stuff for a while. Go me.

I am so utterly bored with my life. Seriously. What does my life consist of? Sleeping, getting up, eating occasionally, seeing my friends once in a blue moon... Writing music and poetry, both of which suck. A lot. I can't even manage to get myself a job.

I'm hoping university will be at least a little better. But I wonder - I mean, sure, learn new stuff, meet new people... study for hours on end... work to pay tuition and residence costs. Assuming I don't live at home (I WANT OUT OF HERE. NOW), anyway. Change degrees six or seven times... wind up working at Wendy's for the rest of my life.

That sounds bleak, doesn't it... Even if I'm being pessimistic, though, I think it's better than being overly optimistic. At least I'm not expecting a prince to come sweep me off my feet and take care of me for all time.

Is it wrong to wish that someone will die quickly? I feel mean for thinking it, but I really do hope she dies soon. She's gone far beyond any hope of return, even if medicine ever finds a cure. She's lived a long life, and I think it's time she died. She's not even really living, she's just going through the motions of it.

Ever wanted something so badly that the only thing you could do was try and believe that it never could have happened anyway, to save yourself from eventual pain? Ever done that and realized you started too late?

I lied, my bad mood isn't gone yet. Sorry for rambling. However, just because I'm sorry for doing it doesn't mean I'm going to stop.

Ramble ramble ramble.

Why does the conversation continue long after every topic has been discussed? Why do we continue to hope that somehow, miraculously, we're going to discover that there's something we missed, something we never said that will somehow mend all?

"Do you really think that I would ever let you go? Do you think I'd ever set you free? If you do, I'm sad to say, it simply isn't so. You will never get away from me!"

Thanks for this song Lyta, I love it. I just need the other half ^.~

*tries to decide which songfic she's going to write* Hmmm... Seth-Keenan sad, Seth-Keenan smut, whole-group silliness (filk, actually)... Or I could try and finish the lemon. (Yeah right.) Or I could re-start that Rhe/Cam - Zar/Rhia fic that I started writing and then deleted because it was such silliness.

Or, I could, you know... write the real story (gods forbid). Then again... It'll just be more Seth/Keenan stuff, so...