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Yep. Up until 7 AM again, and I'm probably going to be awake even later than this. Amber, you may be seeing me prior to my sleeping. >.< Grrr. Shouldn't have drunk that caffeine, eaten that candy, same old, same old.
As for the other problem I'm running into, it's the problem I always seem to run into when I want to write about... not sex, exactly, but women discussing sex. And no matter what, I always feel like it's going to be misinterpreted, somehow.
See, there are two variations on the same idea that I want to try writing. The first is an idea I've had for a while, and since it's not my usual style, I usually stick it on the backburner: essentially, a series of conversations over coffee between two long-term friends, chronicling their friendship (and relationships) from about 15, to 20, and then every decade until their 60's-70's. The one follows a sort of traditional view of relationships and how they "should" be - married her high school sweetheart right out of university, had her two children, ran herself ragged as the Super Spouse, got a divorce at 40, and eventually comes out wondering what she did it all for. However, she still sees Woman #2 as having not fulfilled her life, because... well, Woman #2 has had the same partner starting at about 20, but never made moves to get married. Her response to her (generally more emotional) friend is usually "what happens, happens". She doesn't want/need the ceremonies and things. For a few years in around her 50's they (W2 and partner) part ways, but eventually come back together.
(For the record, I don't want to make it seem like they're interchangeable - I just keep tossing around names. Woman #1 is usually Elaine.)
And, I dunno. I worry that it'll be read as a diatribe against marriage, or traditional lifestyles, or something. Which it isn't, or isn't what I would intend it to be, anyway.
As for the second, it's a similar idea except in a compressed time frame. Play format, in my mind. It'd be about three university (or shortly thereafter) women who met in the GLBT club. One (dubbed Kat most often) self-identifies as a lesbian but is currently in an D/s relationship with a man (which is a bit of a source of contention for the other two). The second (currently going by Sam[antha] in my mind) is single and not really looking, though I think partway through she may pick up a girlfriend. And the third (currently "Terry", though I don't like that as a name) has a live-in girlfriend who the others dismiss as a bit unfriendly but good for Terry, who is actually a control freak that Terry is terrified of as much as she is attracted to her. However, the sex is really good, so...
And I want to explore... I dunno, communication and love/sex, really (both together and seperately). The fact that Sam and Terry are weirded out by both the MAN in Kat's life and the nature of the relationship, despite the fact that Kat enjoys it and that Terry's relationship is ultimately the destructive one, for one. Or that Sam and Kat, despite being Terry's close friends, can't SEE the destructiveness of the relationship until it becomes painfully obvious. Miscommunication, and how it occurs. What people share and withold about their sex lives. Just exploring characters and their misconceptions and preconceptions and beliefs. Like the fact that Kat is the "butch" one that no one expected to be with a MAN, or that Terry is addicted to her girlfriend to an unhealthy extent, or that Sam is caught in the eternal problem of what to do when all the good ones are taken.
And I just know that either I will write it so poorly that it will be indecipherable, or that I will be accused of
a) glorifying sexual abuse
b) somehow degrading lesbians
c) not having any idea what I'm talking about
d) some combination thereof, or
e) something I haven't even thought of yet.
ARGH.
As for the other problem I'm running into, it's the problem I always seem to run into when I want to write about... not sex, exactly, but women discussing sex. And no matter what, I always feel like it's going to be misinterpreted, somehow.
See, there are two variations on the same idea that I want to try writing. The first is an idea I've had for a while, and since it's not my usual style, I usually stick it on the backburner: essentially, a series of conversations over coffee between two long-term friends, chronicling their friendship (and relationships) from about 15, to 20, and then every decade until their 60's-70's. The one follows a sort of traditional view of relationships and how they "should" be - married her high school sweetheart right out of university, had her two children, ran herself ragged as the Super Spouse, got a divorce at 40, and eventually comes out wondering what she did it all for. However, she still sees Woman #2 as having not fulfilled her life, because... well, Woman #2 has had the same partner starting at about 20, but never made moves to get married. Her response to her (generally more emotional) friend is usually "what happens, happens". She doesn't want/need the ceremonies and things. For a few years in around her 50's they (W2 and partner) part ways, but eventually come back together.
(For the record, I don't want to make it seem like they're interchangeable - I just keep tossing around names. Woman #1 is usually Elaine.)
And, I dunno. I worry that it'll be read as a diatribe against marriage, or traditional lifestyles, or something. Which it isn't, or isn't what I would intend it to be, anyway.
As for the second, it's a similar idea except in a compressed time frame. Play format, in my mind. It'd be about three university (or shortly thereafter) women who met in the GLBT club. One (dubbed Kat most often) self-identifies as a lesbian but is currently in an D/s relationship with a man (which is a bit of a source of contention for the other two). The second (currently going by Sam[antha] in my mind) is single and not really looking, though I think partway through she may pick up a girlfriend. And the third (currently "Terry", though I don't like that as a name) has a live-in girlfriend who the others dismiss as a bit unfriendly but good for Terry, who is actually a control freak that Terry is terrified of as much as she is attracted to her. However, the sex is really good, so...
And I want to explore... I dunno, communication and love/sex, really (both together and seperately). The fact that Sam and Terry are weirded out by both the MAN in Kat's life and the nature of the relationship, despite the fact that Kat enjoys it and that Terry's relationship is ultimately the destructive one, for one. Or that Sam and Kat, despite being Terry's close friends, can't SEE the destructiveness of the relationship until it becomes painfully obvious. Miscommunication, and how it occurs. What people share and withold about their sex lives. Just exploring characters and their misconceptions and preconceptions and beliefs. Like the fact that Kat is the "butch" one that no one expected to be with a MAN, or that Terry is addicted to her girlfriend to an unhealthy extent, or that Sam is caught in the eternal problem of what to do when all the good ones are taken.
And I just know that either I will write it so poorly that it will be indecipherable, or that I will be accused of
a) glorifying sexual abuse
b) somehow degrading lesbians
c) not having any idea what I'm talking about
d) some combination thereof, or
e) something I haven't even thought of yet.
ARGH.
