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Aug. 4th, 2002
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Aug. 4th, 2002 02:44 am( Shakespeare ain't got nothin' on me, baby )
I'm in a bad mood, because I can't write anymore, and I miss it. I have these great ideas, and they NEVER GO ANYWHERE. I can write, it seems, for only a certain amount of time before my ability to continue a story goes kaput. LVDA got to 31 pages, but that was pure script and no description and went NOWHERE. "Foresight" (Clarke/Emmett) got to 8 pages (size 12, single spaced) and has huge gaping holes BEGGING to be filled, but I can't. Maybe it would help if I got people to "Rift" me the escape scene, but I'm not sure. (Raiden could be a Zapper, Emmett could be a... dunno, psionic of some sort, Clarke could be a Rogue Scholar... ^^;) Then there's Victor. I like Victor (relatively speaking). If I could, I would write more Victor. But. I. Can't. And it's so disheartening. Mirrors died mid-birth. Fanfiction starts and dies in one night.
I want to be able to finish a story. If I had a genie who could grant me a wish, that would be it. The ability to write good, complete stories and lyrics. Not that that's so much to ask.
I wish Writer's Block was back. I wish we hadn't lost it in that last month to stupidity, I wish I could write fight scenes, I wish I wish I wish but I don't think I'll ever get. Not that I expect a genie in reality, but I don't think I have the motivation to keep a story going for an extended period of time. And with very few people around at any given time in the summer, I don't think WB could be "run" effectively. What I need is a live audience.
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On other notes, I wish people would stop blaming others for their lack of whatever, be it skill or ability or talent or ANYTHING, and just accept that people don't like what they're doing. And maybe, just maybe, it's because they're doing it badly.
Stuff like people getting angry for not getting X award, when they thought they should have. Or getting X grade when they thought they deserved Y. Or being told X was right when they thought Y was. Well, you know what? Maybe you were wrong. Maybe you didn't deserve it.. And bitching about it isn't going to help.
Also, there are people for whom my distaste as of late has grown exponentially, and if I thought they would care, I would tell them that. But, they don't, because they're caught up in their own little world and have no regard for others. So I will (with any luck) avoid them where possible and attempt to feel morally superior when I can't, instead of beating them into mulch like I really want to.
We get the fact that you like him more than the rest of us. If you don't want a revolt, stop shoving it in our faces.
But, alternatively, there are people for whom my respect and liking has also gone up. Such is the cycle of the world, I guess.
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30 days until I move in to the Columbia Lake Townhouses... Hehe. ^^ Can't wait. Yeah, it's far, but in the worst-case scenario, I'll go hide out at Serena's and stay there ;)
BTW, Serena, what's your schedule like?
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Tomorrow, I think I'll visit the library, see if I can pick up a couple of books, and hang out with people. The best way of forgetting that you can't do what you really want is to be distracted with other people who are doing the exact same thing you are.
I'm in a bad mood, because I can't write anymore, and I miss it. I have these great ideas, and they NEVER GO ANYWHERE. I can write, it seems, for only a certain amount of time before my ability to continue a story goes kaput. LVDA got to 31 pages, but that was pure script and no description and went NOWHERE. "Foresight" (Clarke/Emmett) got to 8 pages (size 12, single spaced) and has huge gaping holes BEGGING to be filled, but I can't. Maybe it would help if I got people to "Rift" me the escape scene, but I'm not sure. (Raiden could be a Zapper, Emmett could be a... dunno, psionic of some sort, Clarke could be a Rogue Scholar... ^^;) Then there's Victor. I like Victor (relatively speaking). If I could, I would write more Victor. But. I. Can't. And it's so disheartening. Mirrors died mid-birth. Fanfiction starts and dies in one night.
I want to be able to finish a story. If I had a genie who could grant me a wish, that would be it. The ability to write good, complete stories and lyrics. Not that that's so much to ask.
I wish Writer's Block was back. I wish we hadn't lost it in that last month to stupidity, I wish I could write fight scenes, I wish I wish I wish but I don't think I'll ever get. Not that I expect a genie in reality, but I don't think I have the motivation to keep a story going for an extended period of time. And with very few people around at any given time in the summer, I don't think WB could be "run" effectively. What I need is a live audience.
---
On other notes, I wish people would stop blaming others for their lack of whatever, be it skill or ability or talent or ANYTHING, and just accept that people don't like what they're doing. And maybe, just maybe, it's because they're doing it badly.
Stuff like people getting angry for not getting X award, when they thought they should have. Or getting X grade when they thought they deserved Y. Or being told X was right when they thought Y was. Well, you know what? Maybe you were wrong. Maybe you didn't deserve it.. And bitching about it isn't going to help.
Also, there are people for whom my distaste as of late has grown exponentially, and if I thought they would care, I would tell them that. But, they don't, because they're caught up in their own little world and have no regard for others. So I will (with any luck) avoid them where possible and attempt to feel morally superior when I can't, instead of beating them into mulch like I really want to.
We get the fact that you like him more than the rest of us. If you don't want a revolt, stop shoving it in our faces.
But, alternatively, there are people for whom my respect and liking has also gone up. Such is the cycle of the world, I guess.
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30 days until I move in to the Columbia Lake Townhouses... Hehe. ^^ Can't wait. Yeah, it's far, but in the worst-case scenario, I'll go hide out at Serena's and stay there ;)
BTW, Serena, what's your schedule like?
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Tomorrow, I think I'll visit the library, see if I can pick up a couple of books, and hang out with people. The best way of forgetting that you can't do what you really want is to be distracted with other people who are doing the exact same thing you are.
