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Could everyone quickly remind me if I promised you anything for Christmas?

I know I owe Meredith a Roy pic, possibly with sock.

I think I offered stuff to Amber and someone else, but I'm blanking on what.

I could go through journals, but... uh... I have a LOT of people on my friendslist. :D;;

Alternatively, if there's anything you want from me, let me know.

Musings

You know that feeling you get, where it feels like if you don't hold yourself, you're just going to fall apart, not only emotionally, but physically too?

I get that when I'm feeling really upset. Like my arms will fall off if I don't bearhug myself. I literally feel as though I'm going to fall to pieces. It's a highly unpleasant sensation, even seperate from the accompanying sadness or anger.

I don't much like the person I am right now. To be honest, I think I'm the sort of person that requires deadlines to be able to relax or concentrate - and while I do have those deadlines, right now, they feel detached, like they don't really matter. Which is stupid, because between the exam and the essay, I have nearly a full class worth of marks (40% and 50%, respectively). But I'm still slacking off, paying no attention to what I should be doing. Instead, I'm feeling sorry for myself. And I really do hate that. I do it a lot, and I hate it when I do it, and yet I keep doing it.

Going to at least attempt the Clinical Psych minitest. Then bed. God, I've gotten off schedule again. Monday is going to suck.