Seriously fucked-up dreams.

[alexmegami]

1) Going to downtown Toronto to visit a friend, and the two of us coming out of a restaurant or something and being attacked by three guys, one of whom had a baseball bat. It had a very early-Buffy-esque feeling, which could be chalked up to watching too much Buffy, right up to the point where rape became their motive. Which was, er. (The friend got away, in the dream, which I recall feeling kind of vindicated for amongst the FUCKED UP.)

Then this rape scene turned into a porn shoot in a bathtub? for about thirty seconds before sliding into...

2) Lost in the woods. I know I'm supposed to be at camp, so I'm trying to find my way out. Having trouble finding my way out, panicking, seeing a person, with a friend watching them. Feeling thankful up until that person starts walking out onto an old fallen tree trunk over a giant drop, the thing cracks, I don't want to see this person die so I run like hell.

Eventually I find the other campers, running kayak relay races across the lake. Unfortunately, the lake is HUGE and no one has a two-person kayak so I can ride in with them, and most people want to continue the race. One guy, however, agrees to let me hold on to the nose of his boat and swim, so I don't drown while trying to get back to the camp across the giant freaking lake.

Of course, this didn't help as I started to wake up just as I realized how exhausted I was in the dream and my grip was slipping...

*All week* has been like this in dreams. Being chased, killed, lost, whatever. On top of that my stomach and intestines have been going "FUCK YOU ALEX" and rebelling.

Who have I pissed off? :P It's seriously starting to anger me (or would if I weren't exhausted).

Comments

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

I don't think it takes much analysis to see that you're pretty upset and stressed out about things. Maybe you should think of some things you can do to deliberately relax?

[alexmegami]

The thing is, I don't feel stressed out about anything. In my downtime, I've been hanging out with friends, watching Buffy, and visiting my family and kitten. Even work isn't that bad stress-wise. x_x

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

Hm, interesting. How are you feeling about this whole transitionary phase into adulthood? (I know that caused me more than a few nightmares...)

[alexmegami]

Not really noticing it much, honestly. I like the work I'm doing and it doesn't feel too much like "omg adult!"... I mean, I don't have a mortgage, I pay a student's rent, and my family is within fifteen minutes of either location I'm in during the day :P

[trenog.livejournal.com]

(Re: Roseneko) Here here! Relax Alex if you aren't already.

Can you call me when you're done work so we can see if hanging out is in the cards today?

[alexmegami]

I will, but I'm not feeling very well today either, which blows.

[trenog.livejournal.com]

Well hopefully regardless of which event up happening, your evening won't be one in which you are sick.

Until then!

[alexmegami]

Yep. I'm feeling a bit better, so I'll give you a call after work.

[jagwhier.livejournal.com]

Have you gone to see a doctor about your stomach pains? If no, then...you totally should.


-Jason

[alexmegami]

I have. She predictably tested me for pregnancy (no), and then kind of... gave up on it?

[kisekileia.livejournal.com]

Different doctor?

[alexmegami]

That'd be nice, if there were one in the area. This one's already in Caledon, and she's the closest we could find that was accepting new patients.

I also make it sound a little less active than it was. It wasn't *just* pregnancy, there were a lot of things they tested my blood/hormone levels for. Nothing showed up, though.

[kisekileia.livejournal.com]

:-/
Book another appointment if there's still a problem in a few days?

[alexmegami]

I'm thinking I'll call TeleHealth Ontario and see what they think it might be first.

[trenog.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a good plan. I hope your feeling better today also.

[extramild.livejournal.com]

Eat more. your stomach is protesting LACK OF FOOD.
I have epic zombie dreams.

[alexmegami]

Problem is, it tries to kill me when I eat, too. :P Only in the mornings though. I try and eat a good-sized lunch and dinner (usually soup & juice for lunch, then chicken + veggies for dinner).