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So one of the things I've been doing lately is 8760 Hours. It's basically a REALLY INTENSIVE version of your New Year's resolutions, but taking like... a day or two (or several weeks, if you're me and don't always actually go work on it when you say you're going to) to sort out. In the end, you have about 14-20 things that you' like to accomplish during the year, of which you pick 3-5 to really focus on (with expansion potential if you achieve the first set).

So my goals for the year (which I'm really counting as the current half-year, so I'll re-do this in December) are as follows:
Under a cut for those who don't care )

So that's the five that I thought were most important to me. Other stuff on the list includes reducing meat consumption (those of you also on FB saw the results of that; I'm going to try but I'm not putting a concerted effort into it yet, the eating out thing is more important), improve earnings (I want to get to a regular $3600/mo pre-HST and income tax deductions, or about $2700 actual "my" money), write 500 words/day, see friends more frequently, have potlucks more frequently (see previous point), volunteer, get myself more organized/less prone to getting out of bed at the crack of noon, and meditate 20min/day.
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1. The Last Kanior, Guy Gavriel Kay (last book of The Fionavar Tapestry)
2. Turn Coat, Jim Butcher (book 11 of the Dresden Files series)
3. Naamah's Kiss, Jacqueline Carey (first of the 3rd trilogy of the Terre D'Ange series)
4. Naamah's Curse, Jacqueline Carey (second of the 3rd trilogy)
5. Wheat Belly: Lose the Wheat, Lose the Weight, and Find Your Path Back to Health, William Davis, MD
6. The Hellbound Heart, Clive Barker
7. The Traveller's Guide to the Duat: Amenti on two Deben a Week, Kiya Nicolls
8. Changes, Jim Butcher (book 12 of the Dresden Files series)
9. Snuff, Terry Pratchett (book a lot of the Discworld series)
10. Naamah's Blessing, Jacqueline Carey (third of the 3rd trilogy)
11. The Hunger Games, Suzanne Collins
12. Catching Fire, Suzanne Collins (book 2 of The Hunger Games trilogy)
13. Mockingjay, Suzanne Collins (book 3 of THG trilogy)
14. A Dance of Dragons, George R.R. Martin (book 5 of the A Song of Ice and Fire series)
15. Bite Me: A Love Story, Christopher Moore (apparently this is #3 of the series. And now I'm reading #2. I don't even think I have #1...)
16. Best Erotic Fantasy & Science Fiction, ed. Cecilia Tan and Bethany Zaiatz
17. Carmilla, Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu
18. Money-Smart Kid$, Gail Vaz-Oxlade
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For those of you that still read LJ, I wrote an Az/D'or fic over at my other blog: 011. Faith

I need to figure out a way to tell people that aren't here without blasting it to, for example, my family. #firstworldproblems
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"Because sometimes asking the right questions is the answer."

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

It really depends. Sometimes I feel old and crochety. Sometimes I'm amazed I'm allowed to drink and vote. I'd say I still think of myself as being a young 20-something, despite being an old 20-something.

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?

Failing. I know common wisdom says otherwise. Common wisdom is wrong. (For me, on this.)

3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

Because we came out of cultures that said that denying yourself pleasure was pretty much the only moral thing you could do. Also because the things we don't do usually cost more than just time. They cost money or other resources, or they cost the reciprocation of others. And sometimes those things just aren't available to us.

4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

Definitely. I think this list of questions is trying to guilt me, but I am full of bubbly, so it can fuck itself. :D

5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?


6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

Sex work. (Sex makes me happy. If I'm getting money for it, it's sex work. QED.)

7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

I do believe in massage therapy, I do believe in massage therapy, I do I do I do!

8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

I probably wouldn't.

9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

As much as I could, less than I'd like. *shrug* Some things you just don't have control over.

10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

Both, really. I want the right thing done right the first time. Anything else leads to frustration, aggravation, and waste.

11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?

Defend her? Honestly, I'd probably get very upset with them and either leave or argue.

12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

Find a good doctor that you trust.

13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?

You know, I'm really not sure. It would probably depend on the context.

14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?


15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

Relationships, especially of the romantic variety. (Maybe not differently than my friends, but than a lot of other people.)

16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?

Because people are different? This is kind of a dumb question, IMHO.

17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?

Travel the world, and money.

18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

A lot of things. I let go of things very poorly, even when I know they're toxic to me.

19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?

Spain, probably. Better weather, at least somewhat liberal, in Europe. Other possible choices would include many other European countries.

20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?

No, actually, I don't do that.

21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

Worried genius.

22. Why are you, you?


23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?

Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I hope I've kept the no parts mostly internal/hidden.

24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

Losing touch with the nearby friend. Presumably you're still in touch with the friend who has moved, you just can't see them that often; with the prevalence of e-mail and FB, that's easy... but friendships that dwindle because they get lost in the rush of other things suck.

25. What are you most grateful for?

My friends and family, probably.

26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?

Having seen Alzheimer's in action, the latter is just depressing. I'd hope that my friends would stick around if I suddenly developed amnesia, so if I have to pick, that one.

27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?


28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?

Not yet.

29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?

Let's see, five years ago was 2007, and actually there were several upsets that year. As for "does it matter", well, yes, those upsets paved the way for where I am today, same as everything.

30. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?

Christmas at Nonna's, and because Christmas is always special at Nonna's.

31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?

My cruise time.

32. If not now, then when?

When it's economically and emotionally feasible.

33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?

Time and effort.

34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?


35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?

Because most of them don't, they support love for specific subsections of people, namely their people. Also because people like to prove their superiority.

36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?

Not for every decision/choice.

37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?

Probably not.

38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?

Hard to say as I'm not working right now. I'd say probably more work I actually enjoy.

39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?

At least.

40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?

Probably the last time I submitted a story, but even that I didn't "strongly believe in". I don't strongly believe a lot of things any more, to be honest.

41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?

I'd get Simon, Jen, Patrick and I together one more time.

42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?


43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?

If I knew, I'd be truly living.

44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?

When the rewards outweigh the risks. :P

45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?

Because they tend to hurt in some fashion, and humans like to avoid pain.

46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

I'd be more open about my relationships with my family.

47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?

Well, now, but before that was when my mother asked me why I was huffing about (I was sighing in frustration).

48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?

Patrick, my friends, and yes.

49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?

I might not remember exact details, but I will remember that it was New Year's and I played board games with Pete and Patrick, bought supplies for beginning my own massage therapy service, and signed my contract with the Boyle House.

50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?

Mostly from column A, a little from column B.
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You'll note that I've already completed one task (registering for my HST number). Many others I will be doing sometime this week. Right now I'm too busy downing an entire bottle of Asti on my own. Delicious, delicious Asti.

Look for the 50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind in this space, probably when I get over my hangover in three days or so.


Jul. 10th, 2010 02:25 am
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Continuing to do rather ridiculously well in school. Lowest mark I have so far is a 70% (technically only a passing grade), but that was on a quiz that is worth 2% of my mark, in a class where I got 91% on my first midterm. So. Not too worried, except for that oh god the muscles of the forearm can I just run off a cliff now? *ahem*

I've also rather significantly altered my 101 in 1001 Days goals. However, I haven't had the time to update them on LJ, which makes tracking progress (admittedly quite crummy thus far - I'm still at 57 goals with less than a year to go), but I've modified it significantly.

Basically, I decided I wanted to be a Renaissance Man. :P So new entries include specific readings, like about Medieval art or Middle Eastern music. Most major religious texts are still on the list. In the end I have split the OT and the NT into separate goals, not that I've moved very far on it (Doing the psalms as a separate category of the OT, I'm at Psalm 110 and Isaiah 10). I also have a few musical items - write a song, learn to play ONE song on guitar, learn to play one song perfectly on piano (harder now that the piano is back with Patrick's family, though I should get on getting batteries for my keyboard). Several writing projects, including "start a webcomic" (I really want to write a for-serious Exalted comic, guys, but I'd want it to be full color and in a style that I have no hope of ever achieving myself. Takers?) Perform vocally somewhere (anywhere). Take ballroom dance lessons.

A few sillier things to improve my skill at games, like beating the computer in Hard mode at chess; take a stunt driving course (definitely not happening before the cutoff date), go horseback riding at least once more. Several fitness goals (pushups, situps, that sort of thing).

Will I start or finish ANY of the remaining 44 before the end of February 2011? Oh, possibly - the Susie Bright challenge goal is still at 8/10, I'm drastically improving my 50 Book Challenge results and would probably be doing even BETTER if only I read some of those specific texts I mentioned ;) (Although admittedly my heavy diet of Sherlock Holmes and Agatha Christie is probably improving my speed immensely...)
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So it is Day 500 of the 1001 Days. Tomorrow dawns the midpoint of the exercise, and I'm... more or less on track (a little behind, technically).

So, halfway into the list, I'm reviewing and thinking to myself: are there items I'd like to change? Things that no longer seem that important to me? And of course the answer is yes.

But what to add instead? I'd like to keep things more or less of an even difficulty, rather than whittle down my list to easier things that won't challenge me. But I also don't know what I want to do, to be perfectly honest.

So here's a list of the items I have selected out as needing changing in bold, along with the reasons I'm reconsidering them. I'm taking suggestions. (Also, the full list is still available here.)

8. Write a song.
12. Start a band.

Lumped together because they're part of the same creative impetus. Unfortunately, unless Christoph's band needs a female vocalist, the number of people who want to be in bands that I know are few. :P Also my total lack of time...

13. Run a satisfying RPG.

The only reason I want to run RPGs is because I want to have the game I want to play in. Except I'm not playing in it. Overall a disappointment all around, especially since I'm not very good at it.

18. Invent a language.

Borne out of an overall "I wanna be a riter!" feeling, I think that really, I'm better off finding something that is more... me. Especially since urban fantasy doesn't usually require other languages.

22. Do 101 Snapshots.

I don't do enough of interest to make this worthwhile. :P

41. Watch The Secrets.

The top 100 list is already staggering enough, and also, I can watch many lesbian movies, why this one in particular? :P

71. Go scuba diving.

Still might be interested... but it seems unlikely to actually happen. (That said, there's a learn-to-scuba-dive place in BRAMPTON. WTF?)

94. Buy a house.

I want to... but I'm not sure how pipe-dream it is.
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82. Try one new recipe a month for a full year.
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This is mostly a placeholder entry for goal list stuff.

64. Buy new cufflinks for my shirt.
65. Spend a weekend at White Oaks.
85. Go to one very upscale restaurant that I've never been to ("Liv" at White Oaks).


50 Book Challenge:

7. Small Favor, Jim Butcher (2008)
8. Lost Girls, Allan Moore & Melissa Gebbie (2006)
9. I Will Teach You To Be Rich: No Guilt. No Excuses. No B.S. Just a 6-Week Program that Works, Ramit Sethi (2009)
10. Lockpick Pornography, Joey Comeau (2005)
11. Palimpsest, Catherynne M. Valente (2009)

101 Prompts

May. 4th, 2009 10:59 pm
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025. Strangers

(Since I didn't give it its own entry, before.)


May. 3rd, 2009 01:46 pm
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So, uh. I managed to screw up hash browns.

(I mostly blame this on Patrick though.)

The cream cheese omelette, however, is pretty tasty, although it would probably be better if I had 1) softened the cream cheese ahead of time; 2) had some herbs to add.

Ah well.
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For my 101 Shorts goal, I'mma write 101 short stories about the nWoD game Pat is running.

Because, say it with me kids, my games are my fandom. ;P

Comment and criticisms always welcome and really, really wanted. Context is for the weak! ...but I can provide it if you'd like.


Apr. 25th, 2009 10:03 pm
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So tonight, Patrick and I made what can only be described as protein liek whoa curry. It turned out OK, which is far better than any other curry we've tried, although we forgot to cut down on the amounts to account for only two of us - so our crockpot turned out to be unable to contain it all. :P So we steamed the cauliflower separately (and not long enough, IMHO).

We used the Hot Palak curry paste, and half a cup at that, which with all the yogurt wound up being really quite mild.

MY star of the night, however, goes to a slightly modified version of the first smoothie recipe here - replace 1 scoop of ice cream with strawberries and take out the ice, and you get a very nice, summery smoothie, that actually cut the creaminess of the curry quite well. Usually smoothies are so milky that they can't do that, but the lemon and ginger really made an impact in this one.
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So the latest in my recipe a month quest: Honey-Ginger Pineapple Crepes

The crepes were not very... crepe-y, really more like thin pancakes; but the filler was really good. We also used Chai Honey rather than regular, which was tasty, but unfortunately also gave it a bit of a gritty texture. Still, very tasty.
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37. Buy and read another Peter S. Beagle book.

The Line Between, Peter S. Beagle. I enjoyed all of the stories, though I think the weakest story was Quarry, but that may be because I haven't read The Innkeeper's Song. Hard to say what the best was; both Salt Wine and Secrets and A Dance for Emilia are contenders though.

This is also book #5 of 50 for this year's 50 Book Challenge (god, HOW far behind am I...?)

Oh, and:

6. The Sandman: Endless Nights, written by Neil Gaiman and illustrated by a number of people
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86. Do 50 pushups consecutively.

The last five were the worst. And they're probably not good pushups either, but damn it, I did them.

Life stuff

Mar. 19th, 2009 12:43 am
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So we're looking down the barrel of the end of March, and I'm still sitting at 4/50 books for the year.

Today (technically yesterday) was day 366 of working for my current employer, and the same complaints I've had for a while remain. They're asking me to do more work than I can handle on my own, despite the fact that I've said several times that I can't handle the load alone. I was there until 7 PM today, and really could have stayed longer if I were able to (I needed to leave to eat and ship off Purolator items, and can't return once I've left). Everyone needs things NOW, but I only have so many NOWs that I can dole out and it's not always possible even then. Sometimes you just have to wait on the other guy.

Part of me says, you have savings, just leave and try and find something closer to home. I might, after we find out how much I owe in income tax (from being "self-employed" for four months). But part of me worries that there's nothing out there for anyone, especially not me.

Every time I look at my life I see things that I'm failing to do, that I don't have time and energy for. To be honest, I'm also not sure I have the motivation to do them. But I don't have the time or energy to find out.

I don't see the people that are close to me often enough. And there's not enough weekend to cram everyone into, and even if I'm free... sometimes you just have to wait on the other guy.

I'm so tired, but I can never sleep. I've been having a lot of disturbed sleep lately. Not-quite-nightmares, uneasy rest full of monsters that seem human.

Sometimes I just want to go away, but I know I'll be taking me along. There's no getting away from that.
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And 68 more goals to go.

Just over 10 days per goal. Go me?


Feb. 21st, 2009 12:33 am
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Without working at all, I have mildly improved my goals list!

(IMDB Top 100 changes thanks to people being all excited about new movies means two movies I haven't seen (Seventh Seal, Braveheart) and one I have (Batman Begins) dropped off the bottom of the list, replaced by two I have (Slumdog Millionaire, Gran Torino) and one I haven't (The Wrestler).)

I'm sure it'll recalibrate after Oscar! Nominated! Newness! wears off, but still.

So, um.

Feb. 15th, 2009 01:52 pm
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Someone explain the Book of Job to me?

(Admittedly I'm still only at chapter 15.)

Or at least tell me if we're supposed to think Job is right or wrong from Job 3-15 or so.


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